I have wondered if I am all alone in these feelings. Is it only me who feels suffocated? I struggle to breathe in this enclosure the world constructs for me. It feels like a tomb. They lay me in it from early on and expect I shall live in it, forever. But there is no living in a tomb. It is built by others, those who would assume to rule over me and, in that rule, consign me to death. They tell me I am a woman and thus my confinement is God’s will. I think not. I think I shall be more than this thing they would make of me. “I shall be me,” I tell myself. “I shall be a woman, a person, a human being.” They want to tell me from whom I come. It is to fix me upon the rule of the past. But my parents are not of the past. We love each other in the now. The entombers want to tell me to whom I shall go. It is to fix me upon the rule of the future. But my beloved is not of the future. We love each other in the now. They want to tell me it is my duty to suffocate another into such a tomb. I shall instead tell them, with my life, that I am not of the tomb. I shall tell them, with my life, I am of the womb; all wombs. I am of the womb of this garden that is the earth, always vibrant, vital, always giving and receiving. I am of the womb of communion, varied people living and breathing for each other and the world. I am of the womb of soul; of mind and creativity that conceives of life. I am the womb of seed, of life bursting forth with life. You too, little one, are a seed, within me; a seed of life in this womb of life. I shall not rule you. I shall join you. I shall not suffocate you. I shall celebrate you into communion in this garden. I shall not entomb you. I shall womb you and birth you and energize you so that you shall be more than what I myself might even want for you. Who is this soul that I am? Who is this soul of whom I have joined with another to conceive?
Prayer: Spirit, together we conceive life.
Question: From what consigned tomb am I rising to create a womb for new life?
December 08, 2019 Matthew 3:1-12 Second Sunday of Advent and Feast of the Immaculate Conception of Mary